Tuesday, November 30, 2004
nope.. nope.. wat's goin on??? argh.. i'm nt e' usual wanfern.. no longer e' usual wanfern... i became more n more hard hearted.. no longer soft hearted.. no more.. nt at all...
he called.. saein tt i had changed.. no longer e' old fernny... did i? well.. i oso think sooo...
my smile no longer sweet...
my laughter no longer cheerful...
my life no longer happi...
my tears no longer stop flowingggg..........
sorry seems to be e' hardest word... it may be easy to pronounce.. bt diff to sae it out... bt is it realli tt diff to sae 'sorry' wen u r sincere? wen u realli mean it? bt it's true... sorry seems to be e' hardest word.....
~fernny~ will u feel touch wen someone sae 'i love u.. i miss u...' to u? will u?
caught a falling star @ 9:23 PM
Monday, November 29, 2004
haiz... i'm tire............ dam tire....
didn hv e' time to blog ydae.. haiz.. so sad.. msg ppl fr 4e2 n onli 2 ppl msg mi back.. 2 out of 10... ARGH!!! well.. watever.......
haiz.. nth much happened ydae n 2dae.. haiz.................
maybe i'm thinkin tooo much liao... feel like cryin.. bt juz cant... i oso dunno how to start....... haiz....
i wanna watch a lot of movie.. i wanna watch...
~w/o a paddle
~shutter
~incredibles
~polar express
so hu wanna watch wif mi? haha...... :p sian sian sian.. i'm turnin mad now....
~fernny~ sad sad... i miss him badli... haiz..
caught a falling star @ 9:05 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
tire nite... juz gt hm... argh... went to watch movie... Bridget Jones... nice show ok.. dam funny n sweet... haha.. wish to hv such a bf.. haha.. :p wahaha... ;p actualli wanna watch polar express de.. bt e' next show is quite late... so didn watch.. cuz granny already ask us nt to watch such a late movie.. haha.. :p actualli wanna go cine watch.. in e' end.. change to PS.. n last min.. to great world.. haha.. :p
well.. i collected my top.. woo~Hoo~ actualli wanna go dye hair at salon i de.. bt too bad.. soooo mani ppl there n we nv bk appt.. so in e' end.. went back to jean yip... sooo mani ppl there oso... bt luckily.. i gt my hair dyed... mahogany blonde + red lor... haha.. :p nt obvious at all.. bt.. nvm.. quite a nice colour i think..
had dinner juz now.. granny's b'dae.. dam sian... wat e'.. same table as someone i hate.. ppl.. notice e' word.. HATE... ya.. i hate them... some ppl hu think they r e' best.. PUKE man... wahaha.. :p nt a nice dinner... ppl there.. *speechless* sian. next sat another dinner... argh... after diner.. went to watch Bridget Jones.. haha.. :p tire tire.. wanna slp liao le..
~fernny~ miss everione here.. n of cuz.. HIM!!! wahaha.. :p
caught a falling star @ 2:56 AM
Saturday, November 27, 2004
dedication for my both my bao beizz...
happi b'dae to both of u.. ting n fangxin... real happi to noe both of u wor.. all e' best to both of u too... :p realli miss e' time after co wen we go to tings hse watch vcd.. wahaha.. hope to c u guys soon.. :p
best wishes fr fernny okok.. :p
caught a falling star @ 1:11 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
wahaha... :p haiyo... yao shi lor... i spent sooo much... actualli wanna go dye hair de.. den.. idiot... on e' bus.. siss sae dun wanna go dye hair liao le... tml den go... wat e'.. cuz tml go dye.. den no need to trouble for e' dinner liao le.. wat e'... cuz e' hairdresser will help to blow straight our hair... argh... ok.. FINE... den wen went bugis walk walk... haiz.. there.. i spend $$ again... bought tt cardigan liao.. finalli... n oso another tee.. wahaha.. a cute tee... went V8 makan... walk again.. den buy dinner hm... :p had BK again... 2nd BK meal for dis week... omg omg....
thgs i wanna buy...
~another tee
~polo tee
~my cable
~bottoms...
~e' list goes on... wahaha... :p
wah... i did sooo mani thgs 2dae... colour my nails.. doin mask now... tml got dinner... haiz... granny's b'dae dinner...
~fernny~ wahahaha... missin him... thinkin of him... dreamzin of him toooooooo..... :( wish to c him asap....
caught a falling star @ 10:48 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
love isnt so simple..... e' ups n down is turnin mi mad... i'm realli mad now..... i need to go woodbridge soon liao le..... argh!!!!! someone plz send mi there... plz plz... i beg u..........
i'm goin crazy... i'm goin mad..... i'm stuck.. real stuck... help mi plz... help mi..... argh.... hu do i love? him or him? argh!!!!
was packin my bks ydae nite... a letter dropped... a letter fr him... wif a song lyrics... it's an jing... tt letter was written 2 yrs ago... excatly 2 yrs ago... on 20/11/02 on our 2 mth anni.. n tt lyrics was written on my b'dae on '03 an jing.. an jing... wat e' hell u wan.... y dis song keep flowin into my mind.... was playin my playlist ydae nite.. it was an jing... watched s'pore idol 2dae... saw sly sang an jing... den was listenin to 933 juz now... an jing again... wat e' hell... stop tt... i hate an jing... hate tt.... I HATE YOU!!! I HATE AN JING!!! I HATE EVERYTHING!!!
thgs aint wat i wan... haiz...... watever....
was tokin on fone wif some frenz 2dae afternoon... n 1 of them asked mi... 'do u think u r happi now? or r u juz force urself to be happi?' well.. dis qn realli hit mi.... i realli dunno... keep think abt dis qn till now... n dis is wat someone concluded...
well.. i'm nt happi.. n i did nt force myself to be happi either... well.. maybe it's true.. there's soooo mani thgs happened tt i almost wanna end my life here... do u guys think i'm happi? maybe happi in apperance bt nt emotionalli... been thinkin wat happened e' pass few yrs... heaven is juz far tooooooo unfair.... haiz.. well.. dun wanna sae all e' unhappiness here... i'll still keep all by myself................................ stay happ[i always ppl okok... :p
live life a fullest... haha..*copyrite fr alan wor....so dun u dare to copy tt.. wahaha.. :p*
~fernny~ can someone gv mi some medicine tt will make mi forget wat happened n start anew?
caught a falling star @ 10:56 PM
wahaha.... love sick now.... can u imagine.. i'm missin him..........................
caught a falling star @ 2:59 PM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
haiz... i'm still thinkin wanna wrk on weekends nt... daddy dun wanna mi wrk... saein tt i cant manage my time well... haiz... shld i wrk or nt? haiz.... *thinkin* ppl plz gv me comment.... plz... haiz.. watever...
went chinatown wif mummy den met daddy for dinner... tire ok... dam tire.. well.. shld recharge my batt by dis week... den meet up all my frenz b4 sch re open... still wonder wen blossom n tob comin back?? kind of lost touch wif them wen i wrk at expo... haiz.. miss them lotsss...
nth much happened... juz tire n miss lotsa ppl.... haiz...... watever.. thinkin wen i can collect my top n wen can i go n buy tt cardigan.... watever... miss u guys lotssss.....
~fernny~ feel like drinkin... i wanna drink............ i wanna club...............
caught a falling star @ 9:55 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
tire tire tire.... my batt is nt full... haiz... still tire...
well.. ydae... my cousin gave birth to a baby boy.. n miu miu gave birth to 4 puppies.. 3 boy n 1 ger.. woo~hoo~ wahaha... btw.. i saw jane at bugis ydae too... :p
2dae.. went out wif mummy n siss.. n can u guys imagine.. i did nt get anithg... wahaha... ya.. i didn buy anithg... wahaha.. :p went suntec.. try lotsa clothes bt nv buy ani... all long sleeve de.. wahaha... :p met 'daddy' n chee ee a while.. sooooo qiao... he's oso at suntec..wahaha.. finalli he's o finish liao... hope can go out wif him asap... wahaha.. :p n noe wat.. he dye his hair till haiz... *speechless* wahaha... :p btw.. i'm gonna dye my hair dis thu i think.. den shun bian go take my clothes fr little matchger.. wahaha.. :p nth much happened 2dae.. juz shop ard.. nv buy anithg lor...
well... let mi sae abt him... woo~hoo~ finalli... after soooo mani mths... i gotta noe his name on fri nite.. woo~hoo~ his name is steven... wahaha... :p saw him everidae at expo.. exp tue wen he off.. n now i miss him lotsss... sobbie... 1st dae.. do set up... wen mi n rainie gonna hv our lunch.. saw him at e' back smokin.. i was like... "wah... he's oso wrkin at dis warehse sales? thanx god man... n he look sooo nice on shirt" wahaha.. :p den saw him almost everidae at e' staff entrance there.. as usual... he's smokin.. wahaha.. :p i try to walk pass him everidae to look at him.. wahaha.. :p den always pull alice go smoke to hv a change to look at him... n think ppl there oso notice mi liao.. esp dis guy.. his fren.. keep di siao mi.. everitime wen i walk pass.. he comfirm sae sth in hokkien.. make mi pai sei... den somemore.. soooo qiao.. mi n rainie always c him wen we r eatin at e' staff canteen de.. den he always pt at mi n sae mi... make mi pai sei... alice oso another one.. haiz.. make mi pai sei onli... shout sooo loud.. "steven someone here misses u..." watever.. there's lotsa thgs happened which make mi pai sei alr..... dun wanna sae liao le... realli realli hope to c him.... like tt time saw him on mrt on my way to sch... :) bt maybe our fate end liao le... like someone sae so...
~fernny~ omg omg... love sick... wahaha.. :p lolx
caught a falling star @ 9:33 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
i muz take e' fact tt it's impossible for mi to c him again... haiz... *sobbie sob sob*
well... no more wrk liao... bt nt bad sia.. can easily earn ard 800 in dis 11 daes of 'war' wahaha.. :p watever... there's lotsa happiness n of cuz... sadness... well.. dun sae wat sad sad happened... :p wahaha.. :p watever... sooo happi tt since tue.. not much ppl liao.. woo~hoo~ den someone off on wed all e' way to sun... sooooo happi.. :p eat snake oso can... woo~hoo~ esp durin evenin time.. keep goin to e' back tok tok tok wif mani ppl... *bt feel soooo guilty so soli rainie :...(* someone caught stealin... wah.... watever.. nth much happened... onli fold fold n fold e' clothes everidae for e' last 11 daes lor... wahaha. :p den 2dae went to help to pack... den ard 1 can go hm liao.. went to meet my siss go shop... bought a brush, a top n a bottom... woo~Hooo~ *broke* haven gt pay already spentt soooo much liao... haiz.. watever.. tml goin shop again... saw dis top n a cardigan... tml goin shop wif mummy.. ask her buy for mi... woo~hoo~ den fri i gotta go take my top fr bugis liao... cuz they need to take e' shirt fr far east to bugis.. haiz... wait lor... watever... tire... slpin soon..... wahaha... :p muz charge my battery...
i sad sad... sobbie... haiz..... saw him everidae... n i think his fren noe abt mi liao... argh!!! keep saein mi... haiz... long story... sae abt wat happened abt dis durin wrk next time.. i wanna slp liao... realli realli tire.. :p nite all... :p
~fernny~ i miss him lotsss...
caught a falling star @ 9:26 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
dada.. i'm here to blog... 2dae reached hm quite earli... another tire dae... haiz... nt realli happi wrkin wif someone there.. wth.. shld nt sae all e' angry angry thg here... well.. everidae e' same.. other den fold clothes.. nth to do liao... wahaha.. :p sae ami ydae.. den 2dae.. da jie n er jie came down shop... saw tiff at novena mrt station.. wahaha.. :p 2dae.. no ppl at all lor.. keep goin bedlinen there c him.. wahaha... he dam dam dam dao lor.. bth him.... argh!! everidae 12 hrs of wrk will die sia... haiz... 4 more daes to go....
becuz of dis wrk... i was sick.. so as rainie... haiz... fever.. sore throat... HELP ME!!! watever....
idiot alan.. wat e'... always msg mi earli in e' mornin.. 'wake up wake up... time to go for wrk.. if nt too late.. no time to c ur nan ren liao...' wat e'.... wahahaha.... bt i'm quite happi to c him leh... opps... bt i still dunno his name... hai. watever.. i wanna go blow my hair liao le.. cya guys...
to fishy: so soli.. cannot go movie wif u guys..... gotta wrk...
to shuk: so soli.. cannot go ur open hse.. sooooooo soli to both of u...
to alan: no more dinner n alcohol kaki till next week lor... wahaha
~fernny~
caught a falling star @ 1:17 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
i'm tire.. dam dam tire... can u imagine.. mi n rainie wrk fr 10-10++ everidae for 3 daes already... still gt 9 more daes to go... argh!!! dam dam dam angry oso... well.. will blog after e' sales... den summrise watever happened dis 11 daes.. wahaha.. so ppl... stay tune.. wahaha... wat e'... dun miss mi okok.. haiz.. watever.. gotta go slp liao.. dam tire.......... dun miss mi... frenz n peepz... take care care okok.. :p *muackzzz* love u guys.. miss u guys tooooooo... *serious okok* realli miss everione out there.. wwahaha.. i'm tokin some useless thg now.. soooo.. bye n nite peepz.... *muackz muackz muackzzzzzzzz*
~fernny~ miss all of u guys!!!!! *muackz*
caught a falling star @ 1:40 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
tire tire tire!!! argh!!! well... got 11 daes of battle comin... dunno wen is my off dae sia... haiz.. watever... onli 11 daes.. chiong till siao den slp like pig... woo~hoo~... 2dae's wrk... tire tire n tire... leg pain pain.......
~fernny~ tire.. tire... tire...
caught a falling star @ 9:14 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
tire tire n tire... argh!!! went all e' way to jurong east 2dae.. daddy fetch us there.. *mi, my mummy n da jie* had breakfast? brunch? there.. had an awful seafood udon.. yucks... waited for my aunties to arrive.. cuz they need to settle sth wif my mum there... after tt.. met er jie @ e' mrt station.. went all e' way to chinatown... mummy need to help my granny buy sth.. so 3 of us acc her there.. bth my mummy.. noe sooo mani ppl there n tok tok tok non stop.. wahaha.. :p watever.. she bought mi a hello kitty pendant.. woo~hoo~ sooo cute u noe... hm sweet hm.. dam tire.. slp for an hr b4 dinner.. wahaha.. :p
omg omg omg... gettin.. argh!! watever....
~fernny~ gotta go expo tml.... haiz...
caught a falling star @ 10:16 PM
woo~hoo~ finalli gotta c fishy.. wahaha.... bt stupid.. i forgotten to bring her clothes.. argh!!!!! watever.. had a wonderful dae 2dae.. wahaha... met up wif fishy n sc... haha... well... at 1st.. dun realli noe wat to tok.. bt slowli.. we tok n tok n tok non stop... wahaha....
argh!! eat soooo much 2dae.. had laksa at hm.. den had coffee wif fishy n sc... den had soeul garden for dinner.. wat e'... wahaha... spent most of my $$ on food sia.. wahaha... :p
den try out a new machine.. n e' time for us to deco our foto is like... nt enough lor... bt it's a nice machine lar..
after dinner.. we tok n tok n tok at e' 'artist' corner of taka.. wahaha... sooo fun.. tok abt our sec sch life.. n more n more...
McBlue call mi back to wrk.. *thinkin* in e' end.. accept... dun wanna go back de lor.. haiz.. wrkin at expo.. well.. rainie n grace gonna wrk wif mi there... haha... :p
~fernny~ tire liao le.. gonna slp liao... after e' expo thg.. can shopp again.. woo~hoo~
caught a falling star @ 12:44 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn't love, it's LIKE.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her.
It isn't love, it's LUST.
Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
It isn't love, it's LUCK.
Do you want her because you know she's there??
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.
Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.
Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.
Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?
It isn't love, it's PITY.
Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.
Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.
Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.
Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.
Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
Then it's LOVE.
Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
Then it's LOVE.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??
Then it's LOVE.
Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
Then it's LOVE
caught a falling star @ 8:38 PM
haha... juz thinkin.. whether to go interview wif rainie or shoppin... haiz..... bt nvm... in e' end.. i'm goin shoppin tml i think... waitin for fishy n sc to reply mi... :p
well.. i realise.. i already used to nt slpin in e' afternoon.. wahaha.. can u believe it? bt it's true... wahaha... :p watever... rot at hm again 2dae... did nth bt slack... i muz end my slackin dae asap... den do my research for my next project.. haha.. :p *hopefulli i'll nt juz sae it.. bt to do my research... haha..* watever... i think i'll change fr japanese to balinese ba.. nvm.. do both research den choose... haha.. :p c gt e' time nt lor... haha... :p watever...
gonna watch tv... my 5566... woo~hoo~ xi ha pi tou 4.. nice show... wif all e' b*tch.. haha.. :p
~fernny~ wen will i start e' research?? haiz.. enough of slackin liao lar...!!!
caught a falling star @ 8:25 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
haiz... i dunno how to start suddenli.. watever... i'm tire.. dam tire... juz finish makin my pineapple tart.. yummie.. delicious.. n i swear.. it's delicious..... n i swear.. i did e' bakin okok... wif e' help of granny n mummy lar.. haha... :p tml still gt 2nd rnd.. watever...
haiyo... suddenli mental block... dunno wat i'm thinkin oso... well.. wish everione here happi always.. :p haha.. :p
oh ya... 2 more cs for mi onli.. woo~hoo~ i'm so happi.....................
~fernny~ hot n stink n sticky.... wahaha.. :p
caught a falling star @ 4:11 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know
Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true
caught a falling star @ 2:12 PM
y is there ups n dwns in one's life??? argh!!! i juz hate tt....
there's soooo mani thgs attack mi suddenli.. n i realli dunno wat to do.... i'm lost.. totalli lost... can i end my life?? no.. i cant.. i muz learn fr e' puppies.. be strong... bt wat's e' pt stayin here? pointless... totalli ptless..... i realli dun wanna stay here.. waitin for miracle to appear... where there's no miracle at all...
ydae nite met alan n we drink n drink n drink....
cryin.. drinkin... smokin... tt's nt e' solution... wat else can i do?
I HATE BEING IN THIS WORLD!!!!!
gotta go for my C.S later... well.. 3 more to go... haiz... sian 1/2
~fernny~ can someone take mi away?????
caught a falling star @ 1:08 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
yoo~hoo~ wat a slackin dae... did nth SLACK... but haha.. :p watch my tv... sian... tuo qiang shi jie last ep liao le.. haiz... haiz.........
miracle... do u believe in miracle? i dun... absoluteli nope...... there's no such thg as miracle... once he's gone.. he'll nv be back... there's no miracle.. if there is... my miracle shld come 2 yrs ago...
wahaha.. tt's nonsense.. watever... i'm bored... dyin at hm liao... anione gt lobang nt?? i need to wrk...!!!!! i already used to nt slpin in e' afternoon liao.. cant slp... oh ya.. i cooked dinner 2nite.. u believe? 'cook' or disturb?? wahaha... dunno... u guess... :p
watever... rainie.. dis is for u wor..
~fernny~ bored bored bored.....
caught a falling star @ 10:29 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
haiz...... onli word i can describe wat i'm feelin now....
2dae's paper... argh!!! paper 1 sux to e' core... paper still alrite lar.... met rainie after e' paper... she came my hse... wahaha... look for jobs.. argh!! lets nt tok abt tt.....
i'm tire.. freakin tire.... saw hana n harris at orchard 2dae... den on my way hm... i saw him....... HIM!!! him!!! HIM!!! i already wanna forget him... bt y he wanna appear??????????? *wanna noe more.. c my another blog ba*
~fernny~ is tt realli him?
caught a falling star @ 10:04 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
haha.... wat a dae... suddenli so mani ppl come tok 2 mi in msn... haha... esp ppl hu i v long nv tok 2... haha... btw... great tokin to them... time to study soon.. omg omg.... still haven study.... argh!! help mi...
~fernny~ HELP... i realli need help liao.......
caught a falling star @ 11:26 PM
haiyo... haiyo.... sooooo full now... wahaha.. :p had spagetti for dinner... yummie... 2dae did nth bt slack... dunno how to pass my eng tml liao.. haiz..... *god bless*
my precious us fightin now... wahaha... :p n my ke lian blu is askin mi to help... haha.. gvin mi tt ke lian look.. haha...
didn u guys realise? now is e' breakin season wen mani couples break up? haha.. :p
watever.. tml o liao... n i'm still here bloggin... wat e'.... wahha... may god realli bless mi ba... haiz...
~fernny~ HELP!!! tml o... god realli muz bless mi liao....
caught a falling star @ 10:08 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
opps... *guilty* cannot go out.. actualli wanna go out wif rainie n juan tml.. go look for jobs.... den wanna go out wif fishy oso... bt... ARGH!!! @%^*$&!@#!!! i juz hate tt... i'm havin my o eng dis wed n I CANT GO OUT!!!!!!!!! hate tt hate tt!!!!!! well.. promise to go look gor jobs wif rainie on wed after my paper... den c wen can go out wif fishy they all... haha.. :p cant wait to c them.. :p *haiyo.. sound so despo.. wahah*
well.. coco is back... ke lian de coco... haiz.. went hospital fetch her.. wen she saw us.. she's like gonna fly to us like tt.. haha.. :p well.. spent 500++ on her... haiz... da jie gotta wrk n earn $$ to pay for tt liao.. wahaha.. :p
although no more puppies... all 3 of them will always in my heart.. n of cuz everi1's heart.. esp e' small little tt survive till e' v last min... well.. put to slp was e' best choice.. n i muz learn fr its strong will of living... haha.. well.. FoReVer iN mY heArt... :p
well.. 2dae test ressult is out!! woo`hoo~ guess wat.. i gt C.. wahaha.. so happi.. tot i'm gonna fail... well.. happi enough to get c liao wor.. :p
~fernny~ fOrewVer iN mY hEaRt.....
caught a falling star @ 11:18 PM
tHnGs FerNnY wAnnA dO iN ds hOLdAy......
~learn html codes
~research for project
~go sentosa
~go marina fly kite
~meet up wif... or shoppin wif sc, fishy, jr, ber,daddy(onli after his o), bao bei, honey n more n more.. ppl fr bhss n wrk... n of cuz my clubbers frenz...
~shoppin wif my DLA frenz
~n of cuz... FIND A JOB!!!
~more to update...
~fernny~ woo~hoo~ holidae..
caught a falling star @ 6:47 PM